Fragmented

God's Storm

My wise mother

reminds me that I am in a joyous,

yet trying and difficult,

season of motherhood.
In other circumstances,

I would still feel

at the end of it all

at the end of the day.

This helps, realizing that the extra weight of grief

weighs down on an already full load.

But, again, I am struggling

with not using my grief as an excuse to sin.

Just because I had a night full of terror in my dreams,

does not excuse a harsh tone.

Just because my mind races, scattering ideas and fears at will,

does not excuse neglecting to start dinner.

Just because I'd rather escape....

doesn't excuse leaving the post, the mission, the calling.

So, as an effort to be more here, in my life,

I am resolving to cut back on computer time.

Checking in only once a day, then shutting it off, seems to help.

So thank you in advance for your patience

with returning e-mails and posting comments.

I am grateful beyond words for all

your prayers and encouragement..... I am blessed.